OMG!

I felt weird this morning. I wore this purple three-fourths blouse with lacey sleeves, which I wore it at least a hundred times. Then, it seemed tighter than usual on the bust area, horrified, I thought, MY BREASTS GROW BIGGER? AGAIN?! WHEN WILL IT STOP!

Then I got myself ready for the office in a speed of light. I have this fast paced routine every morning because I always woke up later than what was set on my alarm. This happens almost everyday! I don't even have time to check my 3-layered-bilbil silhouette in the mirror, much more wearing a make-up. So to speak, I reach the office just in time. Wow, thank God! Then, I have this weird feeling again, its like the neckline of my blouse is squeezing my neck. I just ignore it and start pounding the keyboards of my PC..

Two hours later, I need to pee so I went to the restroom. I look myself in the mirror and I noticed the brand tag popping through my neckline. Is this supposed to be at the back?!, I thought.. Then it hit me. OMG! It only means, I HAD IT WEAR ON THE WRONG SIDE. God gracious. Good thing, its not in inside-out kind of way.. Whoa! So,I went to one of the cubicles and fixed it with a blush, hoping against hope, that no one else noticed.

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME!! I WAS BEING FORGETFUL AND MINDLESS NOWADAYS. I'm like a bucket without a base. Anything gets through, runs straight out.

Night-outs Won't Be The Same

It still vivid in my memory

the laughter and never-ending chikka

sigh!

nigh-outs won't be the same again

we're not complete anymore

sam is in new floor

norin stuck in singapore

cha and her malaysia quest

you never knew that the last laag together

would be the last

you think there would be more

sigh! once more

[please click for more laag pix]

Team Building - POS-I Cat Dolls

Hardworking Paid Off

Okay. Unexpected thing happened today.. I was walking down the hallway to the restroom when the MANAGER(!) caught my attention. Then he said this very exact words to me, still vivid in my memory - "Hi, Vell, Congrats! Your team up with Michael (partner in project) has done good with the project.. I heard good feedbacks from them [Atlanta and FSWellington people]." With matching tap of the shoulder. Closeness! Whoa! He knows?! It takes my breath away! Needless to say, that's the highlight of one of the busiest two-week in my life. Stress and fatigue paid off. It's amazing how it wiped-off all the worried lines that's been painted on my pretty(?!) face for those two struggling weeks. Yeah! Wrinkles.. Hmm.. Inspired to work harder.. Yeebah!

Komikal Iskits

[ug sa tumang kalaay, nakabuhat ko ani]

Suliran kini nga gipadala sa usa ka isda nga gustong mopatago sa ngalan nga... awww, wa may kataguan, di nalang, cya si Nemo, nagpuyo sa kalusayan, pasil city. Usa ka buntag ana, samtang nagdigwa si Nemo, niduol ang yang inahan nga si Willy unya nagkanayun...

Willy: "Pasabta ko ani Nemo, nganu man ka nagdigwa, pasabta ko.. ayaw kog ingna nga... (di siya kaluwat ug sturya, unya nisiga ang mata human mosantop sa yang huna-huna nga posibleng nagsabak si Nemo), dili.. dili!! kinsa'y amahan ana. Lapirot kang dako.. Bigaon ka.. Bigaon!! Unsaon nalang ang pangandoy namo sa imong amahan nga si Jaws. Nagtuo mi nga ikaw ang mohaw-as nato sa kakabus. Di ni nako madawat.. Dili.. Dili!!".

Unya nagkanayun si Nemo nga nitibi ang baba ug nag awas-awas ang luha...

Nemo: "Momskie, wala ni nako tuyua, sayud ko nga sayup ni pero wala nako'y mahimo".

Ni lingo-lingo si Willy, ingon nga di niya madawat ang panghitabo, ug mipadayun si Nemo.

Nemo: "Pasayloa ko Momskie, pasayloa ko, kung kinahanglan moluhod ko, ako kanang buhaton..".

Willy: "Dili lang ka igat, bugo paka.. Unsaon man nimo pagluhod nga wa man kay mga tiil? Isda ka, wa kay tiil.."

Nemo: "Aww oh diay noh?"

Willy: "Tug-an kinsay amahan. Kinsa ang na namastamas sa imong pagka-isda.. Kinsa?! Igat ka isdaa ka.. Igat!"

Nemo: "Momskie, kung ang mga balud mobalik man gani sa baybayon aron mohalok ug mohaplos sa iyang hinigugma nga pangpang, ako pa kaha nga isda lang?"

Willy: "Buang ka? Pasagdi nang balud mag-inigat kay wa na silay matres.. Molusot paka buktuta ka?"

Nidagayday ang dagkong tulo nga mga luha sa aping ni Nemo. Ug dihang tungura niabot ang amahan nga si Jaws gikan nag clubbing, hubog ug pula kayu ang mga mata.

Jaws: "Willy.. Honey.. Ania na ako!"

Nangurog ang tuhod ni Nemo (aw! wa man diay siya tuhod kay isda siya!)..

Nemo: "Momskie, ania na si Popskie.. Tabangi ko Momskie.. Tabangi ko pagpasabot niya.."

Ug diha diha, nisulod na sa pultahan sa bungalow style nga coral ang nakainum nga amahan. Ug shocked siya pagkakita sa yang asawa ug anak nga nabulit sa sip-on ug luha.

Jaws: "Unsa kini.. Nganu man nag amards mo? Abi kog nahuman na ang Tayong Dalawa, nganu man ug ingon sa nabukog mo?"

Willy: "Isda ta.. Mabukog ba diay ang isda?"

Jaws: "Whatever.. Matug sa ko."

Willy: "Yuna ra, mag sturya sa ta."

Nemo: "Momskie, mas maayu kung patulugon sa nimo kadiyut si Popskie, para naa siya'y kusog nig makahibaw sa atong ibalita."

Jaws: "Yeah.. Whatever! Patulga sa ko.. Ipiyung sa nako akong mata kadiyut."

Willy: "Piyung sa mata, isda ka, kapiyung ba diay ka?"

Jaws: "Ah! Basta. Pahulay sako kay naa pakoy lakaw unya?!

Willy: "Lakaw? Tiil ray makalakaw. Isda ka..Di ka kalakaw. Isda ka!"

Nemo: "Momskie husto na."

Niginhawa lalum si Willy, ingon nga mawad-an siyag panimuot.. Unya..

Willy: "Di ka pwede mopahulay.. Naa tay sturyahan.. Importante.."

Jaws: "Unsa man ba? Unsa ni ka importante nga di man jud ko nimo papahulayun?"

Willy: "Ang imong anak.. Ang igat mong anak.. Nagsabak!!!.."

Ug ingon sa nahugno ang kalibutan sa atubangan ni Jaws.. Wa siya katingog. Ni balikid siya pag-atubang ni Nemo ug ni lingo-lingo. Masulub-on kaayu ang iyang mga mata.. Wala niya damha nga ang anak nga iyang gialimahan pag-ayu makaingon ka niya ani. Ni hinay-hinay siya'g lingkod ug miingon (di man diay siya ka-lingkod kay isda siya..)...

Jaws: "Nganu ni nimo nabuhat Nemo? Wala mi nagkulang ug pahinumdum nimo kung unsay sayup ug unsay sakto. Ngano? Tubaga ko! Ngano?"

Nemo: "Popskie, husto na.. Basin atakihon ka sa hayblad.. Husto na Popskie. Pasaylua ko.. Pasaylua ko sa akong nabuhat."

Jaws: "Unya nig panganak nimo, unsaon na man lang ang imong pagtungha?"

Willy: "Di na siya manganak kay isda na siya. Isda si Nemo.. Isda.. Mangitlog ra na siya."

Jaws: "Sorry.. Ka wala nako magdahum ani.. Nasakitan pag-ayu ko anak. Nasakitan pag-ayu ko."

Nemo: "Popskie.. Kabalo ko kung unsa kasakit ni para nimo.. Pero wala nako'y mahimo.. Anaa na man ni.. Pwede ba nga ato nalang ning dawaton? "

Jaws: "Di ko kadawat.. Dili.."

Nemo: "Huhuhuhuhu.. Popskie.. Inig katawo aning naa sa akong sabakan, madawat lang unya ni nimo."

Willy: "Unsay inig katawo? Dili na matawo kay isda na siya.. Isda!! Kapila ko man balik-balikon ni, ha? Isda tang tanan.. Isdaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!"

Ug sa kalagot ni Willy, nawad-an siyag panimout.. Mao ra to..

Then, You're Gone

when you say its over
i watch the way you breath
when you walk away
i count the steps you take

then... i realize you're gone
i want to hide... i want to run...
but i froze... as pain is so raw
hoping it'll end to a limbo

i give you my all!
fool that i am
oh damn!

you tear away a piece of me
now i'm not whole and forever will not be

how can i fix me?
aww, tagay dayun! hihihi
wa naman koy masulti...

Lil Sises

I have this two devils living with me. Devilish in their cute little ways. Well, I could say that, because, they always had this fight: who'll clean the cell (I mean b-haus room), who's utang of who, who'll do the dishes, where-did-you-put-my-things scraps.. actually they fight over all the things and I'm pretty sure they always find ways and reason to just get with each other's nerves. It sometimes resort to a brawl, not a brotherly brawl with bloods and broken noses though, just a sisterly pinches and yelling. No-one will give up. Everyone is right. I call it sisterly love. Yeah, I admit, sometimes I get hitched... with the... sisterly love... =)) Hello! Talking about big sis's responsibilities! Okey, it makes me feel guilty. It just that, sometimes, when we care... we fight. Now, you know that I'm talking about my two spoiled-brat younger sisters who always makes my day.

It's funny because, all the whop-whap and the hollas amused me, sometimes. It's like a stress-reliever. A change of environment. It makes me feel alive and kicking. NORMAL. RELIEVED. Freed from all the tensions of my over-competence career (char!). So, its like fatigue remedy. Therapeutic. I can't imagine life without them. There's no boring day with them. They are my own dose of therapy.

Stress-Monger

I haven't been myself lately. I easily got irrated and I couldn't think straight. I felt sorry for my two younger sises because I couldn't talk to them without rising my voice. I think I could use a little drink. Sigh! I missed Norina and Cha2, my TAGAYmates. And Sam is unavailable (becoz of baby Samantha) and Madz & Dan are too prim for booze. I just want to release this tensions that's building up in my system from my over-queued work (char!) and I could not make TARAL any of my officemates! God! Now, I know why you gave me whimsey-drunkard Norina.

In my almost 3 years in this work, I never been this fagged. DRAINED. EXHAUSTED. My head hurts everytime I move. Feels like the left hemisphere of my brains shuffled with the right. IS THIS WHAT THEY CALLED STRESS? Now, I know. And now there's this permanent blackish make-up that is circling my eyes. EYE BAGS?! Whoa! I could use a bottle of tequila. And a massage from a drunken man.. or a drunken massage from a man.. whatever!!

Can somebody get me out from this misery?! Sedate me! Throw me in some morphine!

Be A Doer

im stuck...
helpless cry from the inside
limbs immobile
brain is stagnant
drained all the energy
body so worn-out
stressed crippled me
fatigue overtakes
so much works to be done
so little time
clock is ticking
time pass
can i succumb to a total oblivion?!
NO.
surrender is not an option.
will this end?!
YES.

be a doer..
is all you can.

Why, Oh Why?

Why I always wanted to be someone other than me?
Why I always wanted to have something I could never have?
Why I always wanted to be with someone who didn't know I exist?
Why I always wanted to live in other days rather than today?
It's downright depressing. Pathetic.
Why it has to be like this?
Why can't I just be ME?
UGH! I'm just human like anybody else.
Maybe, I could marry Clark so that I can be Mrs. Superman :-)

Nahan Ko Mosulat

Ganahan ko mosuwat,

Pero wa ko'y masuwat,

Unya kay ganahan man dyud ko mosuwat,

Di nisuwat na lang ko.

I Love You Tay

[kalouy sa picture, picture na nga gi-picturan,
way lain man, camera shy man na si Tatay gud]

I don't know what to say to someone
who means a lot to me
Someone who helped me
in every step of the way

I don't know what to say to someone
who loves me 'as me'
Someone who dares the world
for my safety

I don't know what to say to someone
who make sure I have the best birthday
Someone who has no income
and still brings out the best party

I don't know what to say
coz thank you is not enough
So maybe, I'll just say "I LOVE YOU TAY"
and hope you'll understand what I really wanted to say

-- Thank you sa party, it means a lot to me!!! Thanks Tay for the wonderful birthday gift..