chu-churot-churot

I'm so sapot mo super sayan nako.

I'm so down. Today sucks. If there's downer than ground, then that will be it. I could not even manage to fake a smile. If I could disappear, I'll gladly will. I even wish on my lucky star that the floor would eat me alive. I invested so much for this - energy, time, brain. I give my whole heart. Then, in a blink of an eye... It's all WASTED. Damn. And then, my stomach aches, OMG, I only had oxygen and a pint of water since I woke up. It's almost 1pm and I still don't have a decent meal. If I could only tell the whole world what had happened today... Ugh, but I can not, I will not and I should not. I want to scream the 'f' word and flash a 'finger'. I always tell myself to chillax, but my hormones are overflowing. Oh, WASTED!!!

What irritates me most is that I have no one to blame. What had happened is all my fault. I had it in me but I blow it off. Now the trust is gone. What had left is sympathy. Stupid me, why can't I remember all the TO DO's? What are those notebooks and ballpens are for? I could have write it and paste it on my brow. So that my tiny-tiny little brain could master it. I'm such a lame ass loser.

Then, I could not take the fasting anymore, I went to Julie's Resto below, and bingo, he was there. Drool. This is the person that I used to searched in facebook and in all social sites. OH MY! OH MY! It seems like the world stop. I ordered something then totally forgot what is it. I don't even understand what I eat on the whole meal. Gosh! He saves my day. He brought my spirit back. He took half of my misery. And now I can chillax already.