diet minus t

today my diet starts officially. this would be my... i don't know, 1232764328479579387th attempt, i guess?.

i had tried all kinds of diet techniques. all-protein diet, 6 to 6 (no eating after 6 in the evening til 6 in the morning), fibery diet. they didn't work. or maybe i stopped too soon before it even works. some diet lasts longer that i thought and some ended before i even started.

i don't know which is harder; watching what i eat or what my seat-mate eat.

i need to eat a lot of fruits, so, i bought bananas with dwight. turns out, it's not as good an idea as what i thought. coz we ended up buying banana cues - it was covered with sugar and was deep fried. dear lord, why do everything synonymous to delicious are sugary and fatty. *sigh* this is forgivable right? that should be okay, or else, my diet ended less done 24 hours.

so, other than that, i think, i past the test today... okey, minus the coke that am2 offered this afternoon.

am, you're not helping!!

i'm just... you know... being nice to her. after all, "to refuse an offer is an insult", right? (palusot)

so, today i promised to myself (as i always did) that i will take this diet very seriously. and i hope (i think you, too) that this will last longer than it'll take for me to finish and post this blog. because, looking at my sisters eating those corned beef with egg is slowly tearing every damn part of my being and i need to physically restrain myself to not take a spoonful of those sinful thing. man, i'm heartbroken and it's not even about men!!

it's my first day and it feels like forever. so, self control, i badly need you now, don't let me down.

now, i'm gonna sleep, food deprived. oh, wait! tomorrow, the pack is planning to dine out in "siomai sa tisa". it's.gonna.be.a.looooooooooong.night! and for sure, you already know what i'll be dreaming tonight! yeah, that's it! don't get me started...

ps: to those who ask. i'm not doing this to look good. i'm doing this to be healthy... that's all... okay i'm doing this to look good. like blake lively-look good. that's too much but i'm trying here. beside this diet thing might end before the day ends. coz, seriously, those corned beef in front of me couldn't look more tastier! oh, this is torture!!

i don't have any intention to post this publicly, not at the moment at least, but heck, i'm hungry!! hunger can make me do awful things!