bye party

here i am again, writing nonsense in the middle of work (i'm pretty sure it's illegal). it just that i'm waiting for someone else's doc and the waiting bored me to death so might as well spend my slack time to do something i'm good at - rambling!

so, (it bothers me to start a sentence with a conjunction 'so', let alone a paragraph, and i do it a lot and will continue to do it!, and i know my highschool english teachers would deny me if they'll read it, thanks God they wont be able to, and here start the rambling that doesn't even included in my sentence) my 5 months of stay here in the US has ended and i need to go back to my country, Philippines this coming friday. my mentor, polite and good as he is, which i am very thankful of, planned to have a despidida party for me a day before i depart and invited all the members of the team. and by all means everyone in the group *rambling*. so, (here it is again, the 'so' tale) there's this teammate (he is not in the project that i'm in) who practically sit infront of me and within my arm's reach and we face each other with only the cube wall separates us, so, basically, he's the first person i see every time i stand up and vice-versa (oh there, he just stood up). 

i'm always been awkward to strangers and to all people whom i haven't shared my personal life's story. i have authority issues, too. i'm uneasy towards my superiors and it never gets old :(

so, the invitation's subject is "Vella going away lunch". and there comes my other issue, i don't want to get noticed or to get an attention, as i've said, i'm awkward. and as if my uneasiness was not enough, the person i've mentioned earlier, the one that i share the same cube wall said (in a very loud voice that i almost sure it could be heard by anyone in the building) "who the hell is Vella?, i don't know her". bang! i don't blame him, honestly! i don't talk too much unless it's non-work related or that we shared the same dialect. coz my next issue is, i have a very hard-twisted tongue when speaking english (or tagalog for that matter), i mispronounced words, i'm not spontaneous and people hardly understand what i'm talking about. i can write well (i guess, hehehe) but with that, i had time to construct my sentences. 

so, back to the person that i share the same cube wall, sad to say, he was very right!! i am barely there in my 5 months of stay. sure, i did all the task that was given to me but i talked very little. so, imagine my very red face during that incident - i think i couldn't be any redder!